All this shitty ass snow is making me feel sad. All the time. I just want it to be Spring again. I also want a skateboard so Alex and I can work out together... Like squats and push ups... And maybe even sit ups and all tjat fun stuff. I want to be fit this season and I want Alex to do it with me and i want to go out hiking in the woods and actually have a good summer...

Today, I just feel... Blah... Like... I have been sleeping all day but thats the half-life effect of my ativan. And i have been too anxious to sleep and feeling like things are watching me when i do try to sleep. So the ativan helps with that. Cant do klonopin because ot doesnt work that well. I still get that anxiety feeling but i get tired so thats not very relaxing...
Damn, life sometimes sucks bad!